WHY YOU?
Glass, metal, and car parts everywhere
That bang sounds so loud and perfectly clear
Fear, shock, trauma, and pain
Are we dead or alive? This is so insane!
Riding in a van on a bright sunny day
Laughing and talking the time away
From out of nowhere, in an instant, our lives changed so quick
Was this real or some kind of crazy movie flick?
Suffering the anguish of losing a loved one, so hard to bare,
How does our Father decide whose life He will spare?
Question upon question constantly running through our minds,
Will we ever know why it was not our time?
The loss of our sister hurts so very much
Missing her laugh, care and tender, loving hugs
We know in our hearts that she's gone to a far better place
Fond memories of times spent can never be replaced.
Cherrianne, you're missed by so many, I promise you this
We are so grateful for the memories given, that we truly miss
You are in our hearts always, forever in time,
Our special family together, so loving and kind.
We know that you're our angel protecting us from harm,
Your work with our Father has just begun,
Our praises shall forever ring out in the heavens so clear,
In our soul and hearts you are held so dear.
Written by Bert Calderon
Dedicated to Cheryl Ann McKinney, our sister and friend,
July 1, 1955 - January 25, 2009
YESHUA HELD US IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND
Yeshua held us in the palm of His hand,
Gave us this chance to live once again
An accident occurred bringing death to our door
Brought to our knees as never before
A tragedy so devastating - such a great loss
Our sister is now with our Savior who died on the cross
Our mission for Adonai is not yet complete
Little did we know how we'd first meet
This miracle of life, only He can give
Through music and praise we must glorify Him
Who knew what would happen on this special day?
Who knew we'd lose our sister in this tragic way?
Yeshua held us in the palm of His hand
Gave us a chance to carry out His plan
To write songs in honor of our sister who passed away
To give to Him thanks, honor and praise
Yeshua held us in the palm of His hand
Gave us this chance to live once again
Never did I realize all that He could do
The way He can pick out just me or you
For a mission to let many others know
Through our testimony of faith that daily grows
He saved us from death and gave us new life
Through the power of Yeshua, He spared our lives
I felt His hand carry me as if suspended in air
And set me down softly, His angels were there
I heard His voice saying those words so clear
That He held us in His hand and we have nothing to fear
It is still so amazing that its difficult to express
Now we must show Him that we'll do our very best
Yeshua held us in the palm of His hand
Gave us a chance to carry out His plan
To write songs in honor of our sister who passed away
To give to Him thanks, honor and praise
Yeshua held us in the palm of His hand
Gave us this chance to live once again
Written by Bert Calderon
This poem was written in honor of our Sister, Cherrianne McKinney. She was a talented writer, a gifted prophetess, a woman of God, a great friend, and our true Mishpocha. She was taken from us on our way to band practice suddenly as we were struck in a T Bone fashion by a young driver who ran a stop sign and was high on drugs. We don't understand how else but by Yeshua that Richard and I are still alive, but we certainly know that HE HELD US IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND to spare our lives. We miss Cherrianne tremendously and she will be in our hearts and thoughts daily. In tribute to her and to Yeshua we give you this song/ poem.
When will we know?
When will we know?
In what direction we are going
When will we know?
If this uncertainty will end
When will we know?
If our thoughts will come to pass
When will we know?
If our dreams will be reality
When will we know?
That our faith is our belief
When will we know?
Whether we are being deceived
When will we realize?
That Yeshua is the only truth
When will we realize?
It is through Him that we gain eternal life
When will we know?
That He is our Salvation
When will we know?
That accepting Him is our only hope
When will we know …….
Written by Bert Calderon
KEEP THAT DREAM ALIVE
Got dreams of rising to great success
Got dreams of goals running through my head
Got dreams of that one special love in my life
Got dreams in my mind as I lay in bed at night
Without these dreams I would not have any goals
Without these dreams I’d fear the unknown
Without these dreams my life would stagnate
Without these dreams I couldn’t appreciate
I must never give up this great hope
Even when difficulties make it so hard to cope
Dreams……… I need to keep that dream alive
Dreams........ They tell much about my life
Dreams of you forever on my mind
Dreams that last forever in time
Dreams of our future and life together
Those dreams will stay in my mind forever.
Keep that dream - keep it alive
Our dreams we need to coincide
To make our dreams our reality
Our dreams together of just you and me……..
Written by Bert Calderon
MY SPECIAL LADY
I close my eyes and what do I see?
Your eyes, your hair, my special lady,
You bring me love I never knew before,
You are the one I truly adore.
Can’t wait to hold you in my arms once again,
It is on your love that I fully depend,
Any time apart is so difficult to take,
All I can do is be patient and wait.
I close my eyes and what do I see?
Your image in my mind, I clearly see,
The image of your beauty is embedded in my head,
It is only to you that my heart is led.
Such charm and grace, so sweet and kind,
My one greatest love, forever in time,
My special lady, so grateful am I,
You are my partner and best friend for life.
I close my eyes and what do I see,
Visions of your face and exquisite beauty,
I close my eyes and see you there next to me,,
In my heart forever, you’re my special lady.
Written by Bert Calderon 1/6/09
I Got Them Lovin’ You Blues
Standard A, D9, E9 Blues progression
Verse 1
You hug me, kiss me and tease me
The whole night long
Ooh my pretty baby
Why you do me so wrong
You say you’ll be here at midnight
As the clock keeps ticking along
Ooh my pretty baby
When r you comin’ home
I’m bout ready to say good night
Can’t wait to hold you tight
I got them lovin’ you blues one more time again
Verse 2
It’s one o’clock in the morning
You still keep me hangin’ on
I can’t wait any longer
I need you back at home
It’s two o’clock in the morning
Now the tears I can’t control
Bring me the love you promised
I’m so lonely and cold
How long must I wait
How much can I anticipate
I got them lovin’ you blues one more time again
Verse 3
How long must I wait
To hold you in my arms?
How long must I wait
To feel your lovin’ charms?
Don’t make me wait no longer
I’m going to burst inside
These feelings that I got
I can no longer hide
So please take away
These lovin’ you blues
And bring me the lovin’ I need - only from you
Written 1/4/09 by Cherrianne McKinney & Bert Calderon
A Life Without You
A life without you is no life at all
The best times ever, that I can recall
Are when I followed the righteous path you gave
And realized how blessed I am to be saved
To be cleansed and reborn, so grateful I am
To have been chosen by you to fulfill your plan
The covenant you gave and promised to me
Are so true, as they are, forever binding.
Yeshua, I cannot change my past mistakes
You’ve shown me a new path that I must take
So blessed am I to know you, my king
You are to me, my everything
The one with whom I can share my innermost thoughts
The one who has given me the shalom that I’ve sought
Abba, our Father brought this gift of true love
Given His Son from the heavens above
A life without you is no life at all
Yeshua, Yeshua, you are my all
My life I now dedicate only to you
My heart and my soul belong to you
Written by Bert Calderon
How can you justify?
How can you justify
All the things you’ve done wrong?
How can you tell me
To leave you alone?
Lost all my money
As you left me so broke.
Now as I try to recover
It’s so hard to maintain hope.
How can you justify
The pain you caused to me?
All I tried to do
Was help you with your needs.
How can you justify
All you took from me?
When I gave you all I could
Of my love and money.
Justify yourself
Cause to me you cannot,
I’ll give you one more chance
So try your best shot.
But you’d better do me right
Cause I can’t take it anymore.
This is the last time
I promise you - no more
You can’t justify
Your past mistakes,
Just take it as it is – that’s all it takes.
Make your amends and show sincerity,
Don’t live in the past, just show humility.
How can you justify
All the things you’ve done wrong?
You cannot justify the past for so long.
How can you justify……………………?
How can the world justify
All the damage that's been done?
Little innocent children
Being killed, with nowhere to run?
So many inequities - actions without reason
Things occurring all around with no rhyme or reason.
Plots made up by insane, power hungry, leaders,
Minds controlled by greed as they think they get nearer,
To their goals of taking over more and more,
Never enough for all they hope for.
How can this be justified........?
It can't.................
Written by Bert Calderon
Eretz Yisrael
Verse 1:
Eretz Yisrael, Eretz Yisrael, Eretz Yisrael
The home G-d gave us is Eretz Yisrael
Our land given to us by Adonai
Where Jews always have a place to reside
The center of the world, Yerushalayim
The apple of G-d’s eye, Jerusalem
( go to chorus – then verse 2)
Verse 2:
We must always protect our Holy land
All Jews and Gentiles must now join hands
To protect this great and Holy place
That has withstood attacks throughout the ages
The anointed land, a gift from above
Sanctified and blessed with Yeshua’s love
(go to chorus – then repeat to end)
Chorus:
Eretz Yisrael, Eretz Yisrael, How I love this Holy place
Eretz Yisrael, Eretz Yisrael, Deserving of praise
Eretz Yisrael, Eretz Yisrael, Our Lord is One
Eretz Yisrael, Eretz Yisrael, Where we join as one
Written by Bert Calderon
Yeshua, You Light Up My Life
Am / C / G / D : Intro 2X
Bass Line : A, ABC. CBG, GBD, EDCB ---- A, ABC, CBG, GBD, EDCB
Verse 1:
Am //// C //// G //// D ////
Yeshua, you light up my life,
Am C G D
Yeshua, you light up my night,
Am C G D
When darkness surrounds me, I no longer fear,
Am C G D
Because I know, I know that you’re here
Am C G D
Here just for me, Here just for me
Am C G D
Here to protect, to protect and comfort me
Am C G D
I know you’ll be sure to fulfill all my needs
Am //// C //// G //// D //// ( four times for guitar solo #1)
Verse 2:
Am C G D
Yeshua, you light up my life
Am C G D
Yeshua, you light up my night
Am C G D
You are my glory, my savior, my king
Am C G D
You are the one who knows every thing
Am C G D
You are my salvation, my saving grace
Am C G D
It is your love that I embrace
Am C G D
Through you I’ll be brought to my rightful place
CHORUS:
Am //// Dm //// F // G // Am ////
Yeshua and Adonai – one in the same
Am //// Dm //// F // G // Am ////
Glory and grace by your holy name
F // G // Am ////
May you always be the light of my life
F // G // Am ////
May you guide me through my darkest nights
F // G // Am ////
May you always be the light of my life
F // G // Am ////
May you guide me through my darkest nights
F // G // Am ////
Four times with guitar solo
Dm //// Dm ////
Am //// C //// G //// D ////
Then to Verse one – Chorus twice – then end
Written by Bert Calderon
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DREAMS
Dreams, dreams, what do dreams mean?
Do they tell you a story of an upcoming scene?
How do we discern what’s a dream and what’s real?
Will this dream come true or will it remain just a dream?
I dreamt of good times and things we’ve done,
In my dreams, you are, my number one,
Wishing I could live my dreams out with you
Wishing all my greatest, dreams will come true.
Escaping far away in my wonderful dreams,
To places unknown that I’ve never seen,
Dreams with you are the best I recall,
Dreams of our future will tell all.
Sharing my innermost dreams with you,
I share all my thoughts and feelings with you,
Proving my love and devotion in my heart,
Dreams of you fulfill all the dreams I want.
Written by Bert Calderon
LIES, LIES
Lies, lies, only meant to disguise,
To hide the truth, so many lies,
Lies have destroyed the greatest love stories in time,
Lies have played tricks on the greatest of minds.
Big lies and small lives – they’re all the same,
Often told for fear of creating great pain,
Told by many who can’t face the truth,
Through lies we’ve told, so often we lose.
Lying seemed easier than honesty at times,
However, they multiply so quickly, lie upon lie,
This deception and lying becomes so difficult to bear,
Lies all around me, lies everywhere.
Lied to by your partner about things they've done wrong,
Covering up the truth can’t last very long,
All I seek is to be honest and pure,
Lies, lies, no longer can I endure.
Lies, lies, please no more lies,
Lies, lies, only meant to disguise,
Lies, lies, create so much unnecessary pain,
Lies, lies, please never lie again.
Written by Bert Calderon
WHITE
White represents so many things,
Looking about me is white everything,
White is a color so clean and bright,
White reflects light whether day or night.
White linen, white sheets, so perfectly clean,
White dress at your wedding, so lovely it seems,
White snow everywhere on a bright winter morn,
What a lovely sight I grew to adore.
White tablecloths adorn the most perfect tables as we dine,
White linens accessorize, looking so clean and fine,
White uniforms all around us looking professional as can be,
White, I see everywhere, as I look all around me.
The full moon shines so brightly in the middle of the night,
White stars shine so vividly, what a miraculous sight !
White doves represent a love so pure,
White pills all about that we take as a a cure.
White powder has claimed so many lives,
An addiction that caused so many deceitful lies,
White angels, so lovely, created to help us in times of need,
White represents so many of God’s special blessings.
Written by Bert Calderon
IN MY EYES
In my eyes, you looked so thoroughly enticing,
In my eyes, you were quite inviting.
The way you gazed into my eyes,
Told me I aroused your innermost desires.
Was this real or just my imagination?
Did I create my own story or delusion?
Was I wanting love so intensely?
Was I seeking to love so completely?
I know in my heart there was no mistaking,
The attraction from the start was truly infatuating,
Yes! I wanted love to come my way.
Yes! This feeling I craved many a day.
In my eyes, I saw your sweetness and perfection.
In my eyes, there was an unmistakable attraction.
In my eyes, I found true love that was exciting.
In my eyes, we found each others love so gratifying.
In my eyes, I knew that we were destined for each other.
In our eyes, we both saw the need to join together.
In my eyes……..In our eyes…….
Written by Bert Calderon
OUR MAGICAL MOMENT
Our magical moment
I waited for so long
Our magical moment
Carried within me for so long
Our magical moment
As we brought new life
To this world of such uncertainty.
Such a wonderful surprise
It was not one, but two,
This magical moment from a love so true
Twin boys, a gift to cherish for life,
This moment, unmatched by any other
This moment we share, just us, together.
This memory, this moment, forever in time.
Devoted, we are, to these twins we bore,
A blessing in our hearts, we both hoped for,
Our lives as a family shall begin anew,
As we journey together with our life so new.
What beauty we behold in this moment we share,
Our boys, for them we will always be there.
Our magical moment …. We are so grateful for!
Written by Bert Calderon - 12/26/08
Dedicated to Joelle and Stanley Godek
and their newborn twins, Anthony and Nicholas - my God sons
Written by Bert Calderon
PAST THE POINT
Past the point of no return
There is no turning back.
Past the point of right or wrong
You’ve given me the love I lacked.
Past the point of no return
Since our eyes first met.
Past the point of no return
Your smile is the best it can get.
Past the point of no return
There is no denying.
Past the point of no return
All inhibitions are dying.
Past the point of no return
You’ve unlocked my heart.
Past the point of no return
You’re all in life I ever want.
Past the point of no return
Your touch enthralls me.
Past the point of no return
Your words excite me.
Past the point of no return
Your kiss devours me.
Past the point of no return
Your love empowers me.
Written by Cherrianne McKinney 12/25/08
AS HE SLEEPS
As he sleeps, I watch
I watch him filled with peace
As he sleeps, I see
The little boy inside,
Of the man who’s in love with me.
As he sleeps, I think
Of all the words we spoke,
Of his arms around me
Of his love abounding.
Of the man to whom I’ve committed my life.
As he sleeps, I dream
Of all that he can do
Of all that is unseen
Of all within his reach
Of how much I believe and trust in him.
As he sleeps, I contemplate
The many things we’ve shared.
Our deepest thoughts
Our deepest desires
Of he and I forever in time.
He is my life
My commitment, my partner
My best friend, my lover
I am so proud to be his wife,
Even as he sleeps……
written 12/21/08 – C.A. McKinney
NEVER DID I REALIZE
Never did I realize as I gazed upon your face
That my heart would leap in pure ecstasy
Not sure of where this would all lead to
As my excitement swelled beyond control
I tried to stop this inner explosion
Of feelings, of thoughts, of pure emotion
Passionate thoughts running rampant through my brain
Like the rush of a waterfall with all its awesome power
My heart soared upwards so quickly
Making my head spin in a whirlwind of erotic thoughts
Bringing me to a place I’ve never been before
Only dreamt of, in my innermost desires, only hoped for
Never did I realize that this intensity could be mine
This heat, this fire, this incredible desire,
Never did I realize that I’d find someone like you
That could bring me a passion, a love so honest and true
Never did I realize…………..that this could all be mine
Never did I realize…………..
Written by Bert Calderon
HOW MUCH LONGER?
How much longer before we are one?
How much longer till I’m overcome?
By your passionate kisses
By your passionate love
How much longer before I let out?
The cries of hunger… of love that’s inside….
How much longer before this flicker becomes a flame?
Before you take me in your arms and nothing else remains?
How much longer before your body
Is here next to mine?
How much longer before we intertwine
Before we become as one?
How much longer before
I give to you
What I have held back
for the one
Whose love is true?
How much longer
before I feel Your sweet kisses
As they cause my love to overflow?
How much longer
Must I wait, hesitate?
How much longer
must I crave your sweet fires?
How much longer
must I hold back my desires?
For you…. Only you!
When you touch me
My body aches,
With love for only you,
A love that only two can share
Who can understand just what they bear?
How much longer
Before you are mine….and I am yours,
Before we intertwine our hearts completely?
How much longer
Before it is no longer two… but one?
Within your love, …. I am undone.
Written 12/20/08 by Cherrianne McKinney
What is This Love?
What is this love,
That consumes me?
What is this love`,
That overtakes me?
What is this love,
That overpowers me?
What is this love?
What is this love,
That overwhelms me?What is love
That overshadows me?
What is this love
That overtakes me?
It makes me cry out
Take me !
What is this love
That has turned me?
What is this love
That spurns me?
What is this love
That elates me?
And drives me to
my knees.
What is this love
That brings me such joy?
What is this love
That makes me cry?
What is this love,
That makes me sigh?
What is this love?
This love is all consuming
It takes my breath away.
This love has caused my
heart to stop
It keeps me here
To stay!
This love that comes
From heaven above,
Yet burns with fires
Of hell
This love bids me
Come closer to where
Sin dwells.
It is bittersweet
This love we have
And I cannot live without it
Yet to live with it is dangerous.
And your love is
All I desire !
Written 12/20/08 by Cherrianne McKinney
YOUR EYES
Your eyes, so awesome to behold,
Your eyes, pierce into my soul,
Your eyes look into my heart,
You eyes, my secrets they unlock.
Your eyes bring me to my knees,
Your eyes can take me where you please,
One glance from your eyes
I am undone,
One glance from your eyes
I completely succumb.
I succumb to your desires,
In your eyes I feel your fire,
In your eyes I lose my senses,
In your eyes I have no defenses,
One glance from your eyes
Is all I require,
To fulfill all my passion and desires,
Your eyes !
Written 12/21/98 by Cherianne McKinney
For the man who woes me with his eyes
Thinking of you
Thoughts of you always on my mind,
Visions of beauty and words so kind,
Just like fresh sunshine you brighten my days,
Your heavenly scent blows me away.
Your smile brings me true happiness deep inside,
Fond memories we share of wonderful times,
Through difficulties we’ve stayed loyal and true,
No matter what, I’ll always love you.
I realize now more than ever before,
That it’s you whom I truly love and adore,
Without you in my life I’d feel lost and alone,
Can’t wait to see you and return home.
Written by Bert Calderon
Burnin' Desire
Each time I envision your beauty in my mind,
Arousing my emotions deep down inside,
The erotic, sensual way you move,
Carries itself in all you do.
So proud am I that we’re together,
All I’ve dreamt of forever and ever,
Longing for your touch and incredible kiss,
Whenever we’re together, I’m in heavenly bliss,
You arouse in me such burnin’ desire,
Set my heart on body totally on fire,
Hunger to be with you all day and night,
I want you and need you more each day.
Written by Bert Calderon
INSIDE YOU
Should I stay or should I go?
Is it yes or is it no?
Are you mine or are you not?
I just don’t know where to start.
Inside me is a fire,
That burns like no other desire,
Yet at times it seems out of reach,
Is there something life desires to teach?
Sometimes the light shines bright,
But then comes the darkest night,
Then I cry out from the night,
Bring me into your light.
It’s in your light where I belong,
It’s for your love that I long,
So come and take me to your side,
I long to feel your love inside.
Cherrieanne McKinney
12/16/08
THERE WAS A MAN
There was a man, a quiet man
Who came to me, and took my hand
His eyes were green, just as the sea
And he took my heart from me.
There was a man, with a soft voice
And as he spoke, I had no choice
But to believe each word he said
He took my hand my life he led.
There was a man who paid the price
Who gave his life a sacrifice
He gave it all so I might be
His bride, his wife to be
I love this man with all my heart
And from this man I’ll never part
He is the lover of my life
And to him I’ll be a wife
And to him I’ll be his wife…
Written By
Cherrieanne McKinney 12/14/08
WHEN GOD CREATED YOU
When God created you,
He created the perfect match for me,
He knew exactly what to do,
God knew exactly what I needed,
My heart’s desire, He had heeded.
When God created you,
He knew what would turn,
These eyes towards you,
He knew exactly what to do,
He turned my heart towards you.
When God created you,
He gave to me a love,
I never knew before,
He made my heart to sing,
He made my spirit to soar.
You are the one I’ve longed for,
You are the one I’ve waited for,
You are the one I live for,
I thank God for creating you,
The only one I truly adore!
Written by Bert Calderon
LONELY
Sitting in solitude in a lonely cell,
Locked up behind bars, cold and hungry as hell,
Ringing that telephone – no one answers your calls,
Letters unanswered – seems like no one care at all.
Last person on the train, all by yourself,
Invited to a dance, alone with no one else
Sitting at a table for two with no company,
Last flower from a bouquet, pretty as can be.
Last book placed all alone on a shelf,
Last student in the class with no one else
Everywhere you go why do people stare?
All you want to know is that someone still cares.
Wishing I was not feeling so alone,
Fear of facing so many unknowns,
Always feeling sad, lonely as can be,
Lonely, so lonely please help me!
Written By Bert Calderon
FEAR
Fear is standing at the edge of a cliff six thousand feet high,
Fear is searching for the rip cord while flying through the sky,
Fear is being surrounded in the ocean by sharks ready to attack,
Fear is having a mugger placing a gun in your back.
Fear is being lost in a jungle being left all alone,
Fear is traveling through space into the unknown,
Fear is riding on a rollercoaster at an excessive speed,
Fearing is watching a loved one in pain as they bleed.
Tires screeching from a high speed chase,
Surrounded by guns pointing directly at your face,
Walking all alone prime target for attack,
No one there to watch your back.
Fear, fear is in your mind,
Fear, fear is so easy to find,
Fear, fear the only thing to fear,
Is the fear in your mind and the voices you hear.
Written by Bert Calderon
DAD
Dad – a man I look up to,
A man whose honesty is tried and trued,
A father, husband, teacher and guide,
The love for his family is foremost on his mind.
Taught me so much about how to live my life,
Being there for me through troubles and strife,
Always gave me everything I need,
Told me to be the best that I could be.
Sometimes didn’t show my appreciation,
And made poor decisions while in a depression,
But my mind recalls great memories of our past,
Of great times shared and lessons I’ve amassed.
Grateful Dad for all you’ve done,
In my book your number one,
The best Dad around – so blest you are mine,
I think of you Dad – you’re always on my mind.
Written by Bert Calderon
MOM
Mom, you’ve always been there for me,
Given me love, care, and opportunities,
Guided me in life to do what is right,
Been there for me any time of day or night.
I know my love I don’t always show,
But you mean more to me than you’ll ever know,
Missing all the special things you do,
That’s why I need to say, “mom I love you”.
Written by Bert Calderon
TO MY WIFE
When we took our vows as man and wife,
We committed to each other for the rest of our lives,
In sickness and health, for richer or poorer,
Through troubles and strife, for better for worse.
For so many years we’ve rode our ups and downs
Confident that we’d both stick around,
Taking for granted that we’d always be there,
And through it all, still knowing we care.
I realize that words alone cannot cure
The cloud of wrongs we’ve both endured,
Our bond is blessed by our Lord above
It’s difficult to withstand excessive tough love.
As I look at the pictures of you and our kids,
Fond memories I reflect, of things we both did,
Now I must prove that I can remain straight,
I promise to you, it’ll be worth the wait.
Totally through with stupid drug games,
Wasting our lives was totally insane
Yet I know in my heart what’s most important to me,
Is to be with you for all eternity.
We owe it to each other and our family,
To pull together and fulfill our destiny,
To raise our children to be the best they can be,
Our family together with just you and me.
Written by Bert Calderon
LOCKED UP STATE OF MIND
I know not what I knew not before
I know less now than I ever knew before
Each day that passes by creates more confusion,
Waiting for a deal seems like a delusion.
Locked up all day, locked up all night,
Depressed as can be, none of this time’s right,
Caring less each day, cause nothing seems to help,
No matter what you do – you’re stuck by yourself
Waiting for the next court date – don’t know what to do
Put off month to month – nothing you can do,
Every time I think I know what’s going on,
It actually seems even longer till I can get home.
Life’s up in the air with so much confusion
All stressed out – this jail thing’s an illusion,
Losing all you had, feeling so stuck,
System’s got you trapped – all messed up
I know not what I knew not before
I know less now than I knew before
So little left to really hope for
Can’t wait to get out of this locked door.
Written by Bert Calderon
TAXI MAN
Cell phone ringin’ 24 hours a day,
Taxi man’s got no time to play,
Pickin’ up people from places unknown,
Takin’ them places no one else goes.
Taxi man, what you thinkin’ about?
Doin’ dirty deeds while you drivin’ all about,
Pickin’ up them dealers and whores,
Takin’ them places no body knows.
Cool as a cucumber, slick as a cat,
Lights on, meter on, got it down pat,
Jumpin’ in quick, set your butt down,
Taxi man’s movin’ quickly through the town.
Tell him your troubles, tell him your woes,
Tell him if you need to be connected to them whores,
All night and day, cell phone’s ringin’ off the hook,
Gotta move quick, gotta hurry up and book.
Taxi man, Taxi man, loner in the night,
Taxi man, taxi man, look for his light,
Taxi man, taxi man, drivin’ blue and white,
Taxi man, taxi man, quickly out of sight.
Written by Bert Calderon
TORE ME APART
Think of you often each day
Feel badly that circumstances led us astray,
Realize now how much you sacrificed
Took care of me through the worst times of my life,
So many obstacles got in our way
Drugs and wrong decisions pushed me away,
It hurts me so bad that I turned my back on you,
But it got to the point that I didn’t know what else to do
Pictures of your pain flash daily through my mind
Drove me crazy time after time,
It hurt me to watch you hurting yourself,
And nothing I did ever seemed to help.
It still pains my heart as I recall your distress
The times you cried begging for help,
I want you to know that it tore me apart,
You’ll always have a piece of my heart.
Pray for your well being and happiness in life,
For you to keep strong with the will to survive,
Want you to know I’m still grateful to you,
For caring for me as only you could do.
Written by Bert Calderon
BROKEN HEARTED
Broken hearted since I’ve been gone,
Thinking of you from dusk to dawn,
Missing your smile and beautiful face,
Memories of us that can’t be replaced
So difficult with no way to reach you by phone,
Letters unanswered, I feel so alone,
So sorry I am for errors in the past,
In my mind I thought forever we’d last.
I now realize things I’ve done wrong,
Didn’t communicate or show faith for so long,
Pushed you away without realizing what I’d done,
But to me, you’re always my number one.
Don’t want to lose you – need another chance,
To prove I can show care and romance,
To be the person we both know I can,
So give me another chance to be your man.
Written by Bert Calderon
NEVER WANTED
I never wanted to hurt you so bad
Nor bring tears to your eyes or make you feel sad,
To not respect your feelings and emotions,
Nor forget about commitment and devotion
Never wanted us to stray apart,
Never wanted to break your heart,
Never wanted to lose you or show disrespect,
Never realized where all time went.
Now I’ve had time to contemplate the past,
And realize what a perfect match,
We were and could be if you try once again,
And give me the chance to prove you can depend
On my word, care, compassion, and love,
On being there to lean on with loving hugs,
On my being there for you unconditionally
On us being together, just you and me.
Written by Bert Calderon
CAN YOU?
While away it’s so hard to maintain,
Without you my thoughts are driving me insane
The one thing that I cling on to,
Is the vision of love between me and you,
Can I ever make up for the time that is lost
Can I have the chance to prove my remorse
Can we ever be like we were from the start?
Can you forgive my errs and allow us to restart?
Intensity of our love brings tears to my eyes,
Sad tears while apart – so difficult to disguise
Joyful tears for giving me a chance to apologize,
I need you my love for the will to survive.
Your friendship and love are my greatest blessings,
You’re as important to me as the air that we breathe,
My partner who’s always been there for me,
My soul mate, my heart, can you please forgive me?
Written by Bert Calderon
INTERTWINED LIVES
Our lives are intertwined by commitments we’ve made
Great times we’ve shared can’t be taken away,
Our love is worth saving though times are rough,
Nothing can alter, that you’re the one I love
Some decisions I’ve made were drastic mistakes
Not being with you is so difficult to take,
Our future together is all I truly want
Praying for your forgiveness – please open your heart.
Think not of problems we’ve had in the past
Our relationship should be strong enough to last,
My promise to you is to show love and care
And prove to you that I’ll always be there.
Written by Bert Calderon
IF ONLY
If only I hadn’t
done the things I did……
Wasting my life
From the time I was a kid…..
If only I hadn’t
Been so selfish and blind……
Leaving nothing but destruction
And bewilderment behind…….
If only I hadn’t
Turned my back on God’s love….
Searching for wickedness
Instead of looking above……..
If only you could give
Our love one more chance…..
I’d do everything right
For your happiness……
If only I could ask
One last thing from you
Don’t give up on us now
For all time I’ll be true…….
If only…….
Written by Bert Calderon
TOGETHER WE’LL GET THROUGH
It’s times like this we must stay strong,
I’ll be there to help before too long,
It’s difficult I know, without me there,
Just remember how much I care.
Keep positive and together - we’ll get through,
We need each other because our feelings are true,
Striving to better ourselves each day,
The Lord will always provide a way.
As long as we maintain our goals,
Our relationship will strengthen and grow,
Together, I know we’ll get through,
Remember that “I am in love with you”.
Written by Bert Calderon
DEVOTED TO YOU
Imagining being next to you lying side by side,
Knowing there is nothing I must hide,
Being totally myself while I am with you,
Such a perfect match, just us two.
So blessed am I to have you in my life,
The most perfect partner and wife,
Can’t wait to get past all we now face,
So I may prove my devotion to you cannot be replaced.
Love you and need you as my partner for life,
Your happiness is worth any sacrifice,
It is you and I forever in time,
I am yours and you are mine.
Written by Bert Calderon
WE CHOSE ONE ANOTHER
Through disagreement, disappointments, and stressful times,
You’ve remained calm and strong – still able to smile,
The times we’ve shared are the best I recall,
Each day brings miracles above all.
Never change anything about our lives together,
Knowing in my heart we chose one another,
You gave me friendship and a sense of belonging,
You’ve brought me excitement and deep feelings.
You’ve shown me acceptance, wisdom, and faith,
You’ve shown me love, hope, and it all it takes,
My life’s been positive since we first met,
Being with you is the best it can get.
Written by Bert Calderon
CHAINED TO YOUR HEART
Chained to your heart with bonds of love,
Locked together by commitment and love,
Each day brings a hidden surprise,
Exciting and vibrant as the sparkle in your eyes.
You are so intelligent, compassionate, and wise,
Loving, tender, sweet, and kind,
Being with you is perfect as can be,
You are chained to my heart – it’s our destiny.
Written by Bert Calderon
VISIONS OF YOU
Visions of you forever on my mind,
Memories that last forever in time,
Times we’ve shared, Just you and I,
Made me so happy that I realize.
That my hopes and dreams became reality,
I know this is real, not a fantasy,
A relationship like ours I’ve always dreamed of,
Realizing in my heart that I’ve found true love.
You satisfy my needs as never before,
Being with you is all I hope for,
Consideration and care we must constantly show,
Together facing life’s unknowns.
To me, we make a perfect pair,
No one else for me, could ever compare.
Visions of you forever in my mind,
Memories and visions forever in time,
Written by Bert Calderon
ONE NIGHT WITH MY KING
One night with my King
In my life, he has changed everything
One night in his arms
I forget the world and all itʼs charms
One night with my king
Down deep inside, my spirit sings
A song of love and majesty
A song only my king can bring
One kiss from his lips
Reveals a passion I have missed
One moment in his eyes
All of my inhibition dies
One night in his fire
My passions grow, higher and higher
I long to fulfill all his desires
One night with my king
Has changed everything!
Written for my Richard Wagner
Written by Cherrieanne McKinney
12/03/08 1st draft
